The Bittersweet End of the Trilogy

Endings are the most bittersweet part of writing. Sure, the blank page is hard, and the sloppy middle causes procrastination, but the end holds a special power to bring an assortment of emotions to a writer that can be hard to handle.

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I published my first novel, Maladaptation, in 2015. It was the product of a lot of hard work and FOUR YEARS in the making, so it was my baby for a long time. Even after I started the second book in the series, this book was special. It was my masterpiece – my magnum opus – and no other work held the same place in my heart.

It was proof that I was a writer. That I had ARRIVED.

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Then time passed. I wrote and published other books, like the second in the series, Cluster B, and a couple of romances. I pressed forward. I persevered. I wrote like a madwoman.

Honestly, I went a little nuts.

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After the second book, I was so burned out on the story’s universe that I had to get away from it for a while. Being so close to it for so long – over five years between the two books – left me feeling burned out and beat down.

I read Maladaptation again recently with fresh eyes and found it wasn’t the gem I thought it was. It’s a good book, definitely, and I’m proud of having written it, but its sheen has faded. I see it for what it is: my first book, the story through which I learned most of what I know about the art of writing.

The time I spent writing other stories in different genres renewed my faith in the series, which I decided recently would only be a trilogy, and I decided that 2017 is the year I will wrap it all up.

I’m overjoyed to see myself wrapping up this passion project, but also pretty sad. After all, I spent a lot of time on these characters. I filled them with myself. I shaped them into more than the archetypes they were when I began writing the first story in 2011.

It’s all the more reason to face this project head-on. I’m already about a quarter of the way finished with the first draft of the third book, Eager Observer, after two long false starts. This one feels like a winner, and I’m headed toward the bittersweet end with an open heart and guns blazing.

My characters deserve no less.



One thought on “The Bittersweet End of the Trilogy

  1. Yay, gifs! And finishing! I’m so excited for you, and I’m glad this most recent iteration is working for you! 🙂

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